Today is Sunday December 23rd. I weighed in on Friday, at 239. Which is fine. I feel very confident that I ate well last week, and watched my portions very closely. I really need to start incorporating exercise, but I'm allowing myself to wait until after Christmas. I took one Stacker Friday, but haven't taken any yesterday or today yet. Although I just ate breakfast and do plan to take them today. I haven't really watched super closely w hat I've aten this weekend, but I definitely didn't go crazy. Even when I tried to , aka had pizza... I was full pretty fast. So, all in all things are going great !

Self Control!!!!!! =]

Holly has been over visiting since Sunday, and is staying until next Sunday. I am so happy! It has obviously been a challenge for me, sticking to my diet when I have company around. But I've been doing it!! For example, it's 10:51 on Wednesday night, and I am soo hungry. All I ate today; for breakfast I did have a bacon egg and cheese bagel sandwich.... but after that, I had a cucumber sandwich and that's it! I'm so proud! I admittedly just went and made about 20 pizza rolls, fully intending to eat them. However, I reminded myself that there's like 700+calories in that plate full.... so I had a glass of ice water with a crystal light cherry pomegranate flavor pack in it instead. So proud!!! I admired my belly in the reflection of the kitchen window, and then in the full length mirror by the front door... and realized that my belly is quite noticeably getting smaller... and that was motivation enough!!! Having a normal person belly will be much more satisfying than stuffing fatty food crap in my face. Please guide me and help me to consciously make the right decisions, Lord!!!!!!!!! I need this!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday #2!

So I weighed myself again this morning since it's Friday, and the scale says 242... trying not to look at my previous post because I think that's more than I posted last time and I'm afraid to look! LOL... I've been doing great though with NOT over eating, I've had tons of energy, been in a great, and hopeful mood.. which is going to help this process a LOT! I have been taking stackers for just under 2 weeks now, and my house is cleaner, my mind is more focused, I get bored doing mundane things like Facebooking, and I decided this morning that I am ready mentally to start doing some exercising and setting up a routine for myself! I feel my clothes fitting slightly better somehow, and it feels great to feel great! I am already a confident, attractive person and I cannot WAIT to get back to feeling like I'm on top of the world, like I used to feel before I had the kids! I adore them and wouldn't change my past for anything...but now it's time to change my future!!! :)

FRIDAY #1

Today is the first Friday I am weighing in. I started taking 'Stacker 3 XPLC' on Tuesday December 4th. I weighed myself this morning, and I weigh 234 pounds. I am very excited to see how things go. Thus far, I have definitely noticed that I can't finish my food, I have no appetite! Which is great! I feel very hungry about every 1.5 hours, and make it a point to eat something healthy and tell myself I can have something junky later... and by the time I have some healthy stuff I am no longer hungry for junk! Plus, everytime I think of eating junk when I get hungry, I remind myself how important it is to me to be healthy again and to get to a healthy weight! I'm not asking or expecting this pill to get me in fantastic shape.. I'd just like it to help me lose maybe 50 pounds, so I can move around better and perhaps start jogging & what not. This week I've been working, and I walk alot at work.. plus I've had so much energy that I clean and keep active when I'm at home, too. So I haven't done any extra exercise.. but I fully intend to on my days off of work. On the first day I took 1 pill, and since then I've taken 2 a day. One after breakfast, and one after lunch. I eat dinner around 5-6 pm so I haven't taken them after dinner. I do like to get my sleep, and I know I need it. I've been drinking tons of water and crystal light, not only because it's great for me- but because I have been VERY thirsty. I hear that these pills make you thirsty.. which is perfect. :) I haven't drank any caffeine at all, because I know that the pills have a ton of caffeine & what not, so I haven't chanced it.. OH I lied.. I just remembered a couple days ago I had a coke around 3pm, but it didn't affect my sleep. :) I will keep posting every single Friday! If I see some decent results, I may keep taking these! However if I'm not happy with the results I see after a few weeks or even the whole bottle.. I won't be buying any more. Wish me luck and good health!!!

Friday morning check-ins!

Starting this week, I will be doing Friday morning weigh-ins!!! I'm very excited about it... I think it will really make me think about what I'm eating, how active I'm being, etc. Today I bought some Stacker 3's, XPLC's. I am really hoping that they help boost my metabolism and get the ball rolling...because in the past when I've had a boost, it really also boosts my confidence which makes me even more dedicated and results in me having alot more faith in myself. So, fingers crossed! Considering today is Monday, I'm going to finish out the rest of this week eating well, and trying to incorporate some exercise. No reason not to! Then on Friday I will blog about the week, and post my current weight. Each Friday I will blog here. As far as the Stackers, I've read some horror stories about them.. and some success stories. So I'm really unsure of what to expect. I'm really quite sensitive to caffeine, so according to what I've read these may not be a great thing for me.. just have to remind myself not to drink /consume caffeine from any other sources AND to refrain from taking these on days I drink alcohol. Hopefully they won't mess up my body or my already wishy-washy liver. Anywho- wish me luck!!!!!!!! :)

Monday October 1, 2012

This morning Joe and I got up and got the kids on the bus, and left within half an hour [at 9o o'clock] to go for a walk. We figured we would go to the left from our house, straight for awhile, down to the left past the whirl -i-gig, and left again along the lake shore until we got to town. My legs were really sore at first, but the more we walked the better I felt! It was nice talking and spending time with Joe, too. I was irritated at times because I was out of breath, but I'm glad we stuck it out! A couple times he suggested that if I wanted we could take a shorter route home, but I told him no! I would feel awful about myself if I took the easy way. It was so rejuvenating. When we got back into town, I was starving. So we headed to the coffee shop for a fruit smoothie. The bank clock said what Joe thought was 10:01... but upon further inspection we realized that had been the date.... it was 11:20! We were walking for over 2 hours! It was soo shocking. It felt really long and boring at times, but we figured it was maybe an hour or so. LOL. I guess time flies when you're having fun!! LOL. So then we got our smoothies and conteplated sitting at the park to finish them, but we walked up the steep back hill by the park and headed home. I was really light headed because anytime I have sugar first thing in the day, I feel sick, light headed, and dizzy. And the smoothie was a fruit smoothie, so there's tons of sugar right there.. plus there was a little whipped cream on top, and that did me in. I don't know why. I've had my sugar checked a few times in the past and I'm not diabetic. Hmmm. Strange. Once we got home, and started walking around the house, I realized just how sore I am! My back is pretty sore, and my big toe on my right foot has a huge blister on the side of it! I think it's hilarious because my feet aren't/weren't even really sore or anything. It kinda grosses me out though. LOL. So then we had our real brunch.. I finished the other half of my sub that I had for dinner last night. It was a turkey and swiss sub with romaine lettuce, tomatoes, and a little buffalo sauce. I could hardly finish it! So I threw almost half of it away. Then I had a 4-6 oz glass of apple cider. YUM. It was the perfect end to the meal. After we were done eating we wanted to go for a ride to see how far we had actually walked. I assumed it was like 3 miles, Joe said it was probably around 5-he GUARANTEED me it was more than 3. I didn't believe him, so we hopped in the car , reset the trip meter, and drove the exact path that we had walked. It turned out to be 7 miles!!!! Woo hooo! =] SO proud of myself, and Joe1 Now I have to hop in the shower so I can go get Silvana from school and drive her up to gymnastics. I plan on having some veggies for dinner. Well see. But I definitely need to make sure I take my eating very seriously because I'm not doing this exercising for nothing!!!!! Oh also, I did some research and found a website that calculates how many calories you burn by your weight and activity/ activity level, and it estimated that I burned 1200 calories from that walk! SWEET!!!!! I also read that you need to burn like 4000 calories more than you consume in order to lose a pound! Food for thought!!! :P

Beginning!

Right now it is 12:43 a.m. on Sunday September 30th, 2012. I am a 26 year old mother of 2 beautiful, wonderful children. I currently weigh 242 pounds. This is more than I have ever weighed before, even while pregnant. I am completely baffled, sad, and shocked. I have decided to completely transform my life. I'm really scared, really sad, really frustrated. I know it's going to be hard, but it needs to be done. I'm going to keep track of everything I eat, all the exercise I get, etc over the next many weeks, months, and perhaps even years. I just pray that I can do it. I am fairly strong willed, but have become very lazy, I'm not going to lie. I work part time, I do everything for my kids, I keep my house clean, I make healthy meals, and now it's time to learn to incorporate some exercise into my life now that the kids are both in school.